I can see clearly now…

Day 4 of my 21 Day Fix. Today’s blog is going to be a bit different. I’m going to wax philosophic. Okay, not totally, but I am writing this before I got do my Yoga Fix.

Just now I got changed into my jammies. Yeah, I know it’s only 6 pm, but I am all about comfort. This week has been interesting. I’ve found I absolutely HATE the chocolate Shakeology. I tried it Monday and barely got it down. Granted, I’m not a huge chocolate lover, but didn’t care for it. Today I tried it again, this time with coffee. I didn’t even get half of it down before I started the choke you do before barfing. I didn’t, but I do know chocolate will not be in my rotation. I am not trying to be disrespectful or rude, but honest. Tomorrow is strawberry. Very hopeful it will be my favorite.

So, back to being profound and pensive (or not.) This has been quite a week. Personally and professionally. My oldest is hurting over a breakup (she ended it) this past August. When she realized she wanted to undo what she did, he wasn’t willing to give her another chance. My youngest broke up with her boyfriend last week because he wanted more than she was willing to give. Being a mom of two single teens with hurt hearts, sucks.

Second, it’s almost prom season. And in case you missed the last paragraph, my girls are single. Don’t give me the whole, “oh they can go alone” speech. My youngest is a freshman and can’t go solo and my oldest believes prom is meant to be a date dance.

Third, Veronica will be heading off to college in August. While it’s only January, my heart is already heavy. I’m so excited for what her future holds, but dang, it will be so weird when she heads off. Graduation announcements and invitations, cap and gown, committing to a school…ack, too…much…feels!

Professionally it’s been a bit trying as well. I have the best career there is. But, it can be trying at times. Yesterday it seems everything I did was wrong. I almost ran a doctor over twice in the hallway, then twice walked in on him in an exam room. In my defense, he hadn’t changed the light color, so I assumed it was okay for me to enter, but still…I was embarrassed. Plus, all the referrals crossing my desk for those needing counseling, well, I’m going to be very busy. And working where I do, there are always a million (give or take a few) snacks around that are unhealthy. And the physicians buy lunch regularly. Again, wonderful yet unhealthy.

Today I weighed. I know I shouldn’t already, but I did. And guess what? I’ve lost 2 pounds. Now, whether that is from the 4 days of my Fix or not, I don’t know, but results are results. I was pretty darned excited.

Now back to my jammies. As I changed I caught my reflection in the mirror and I felt my tummy looked a little flatter. Is it in my imagination? Reality and my brain tell me yes that after 4 days my abs can’t possibly be flatter. But that image, whether true or not, made me realize this journey of 2016, this quest for health and well-being, is definitely where I want to be headed.

Anyone can begin a journey like this. Perhaps it’s just walking from your front door to your mailbox. Perhaps it’s preparing for a marathon. Maybe it’s trying to be healthy enough to have chemo or radiation. Whatever your goals…it’s never too late and no goal is too small.

Be the you that you want to see in the mirror.



One response to “I can see clearly now…

  1. Even through a stressful week, you’re pushing on….and THAT is a GREAT journey in itself.